sunshine in the morning

loving you feels like

sunlight streaming in from windows
whose ledges are
occupied with greenery and

soft jazz seeping out
from the record player
by that
blue velvet couch and

your arms wound around
the stillness
of my
beating heart and

sunflowers in my hair,
still smiling

I keep your flowers on the windowsill

you creep into my bones on wintry mornings
while the light tiptoes its way across my white bedsheets and
I recall Bukowski in my head claiming love like
serious illnesses

while I smuggle earl grey
tea in between the lips of December promises and
wonder how you recover from love that spills
into your coffee cup or if

love is even love if
it requires recovering from.

 

drunk on stardust and the thought of you

and the night feels like a summer night but doesn’t feel like summer because you are my sunshine and what is summer without sunshine and do you see the same stars tonight?

the ones littering the sky with the bright moon by their side and I think of how this would be a perfect time to bring the car to the place where it all began and look up, look up for a little while.

though I’ll admit that when you’re next to me I barely look at anything but your face and your eyes and your smile and that feels a lot like I’m looking at the stars anyhow.

they say the brightest stars lead home so if I watch them long enough will they lead me to you?

it’s much the same anyways, missing you, as waiting to see the stars.

lasts all day and then I know you’re there but I know you’re miles away and on some days even the night fails to bring you to me.

you are stars to me because that’s what galaxies are made of and when it comes to you is there any other explanation for how you make me feel the way I do?

 

summer salt

offcity streets.
stretches of green roll away to the sound of vintage summer music and the soft of your heartbeat. only hours ago I swore I was carrying too much weight to open my chest even for oxygen.  now it all feels a lot like feathers.  like a distant memory of the heaviness. like it’s the pain that can’t breathe when you’re next to me.

 

a field of sunflowers.
you drove me hours just to hold hands with  petals that have fallen for the sun.  i think of the poem I wrote once. if I remember it was about sunflowers and directions. it feels long ago. funny because hours feel like minutes when I’m with you. i laugh at the idea of  loving anyone else somehow. when you drive I flicker my gaze between the window and your image now.  i can’t decide which view is more beautiful. but if I were made to choose I know it would be you.

 

pretty skylines.
i hold your hand like you are made of stardust. one strong whisper and you could blow away. stardust because I know you to build galaxies. stardust because you must be made of shooting stars. the kind that caught my wishes when I set them free. how else could this be real and you be in love with me.