it is difficult to resist the
sharp and wounding call of
my own mind when
it whispers promises like
melting sugar in my ear of
better poems than I
I tiptoe the line between insanity and reality while
my hands shake with the earthquakes you have
I cannot feel but I can feel the way my
body is shivering from the cold your words inject
into my bloodstream.
It feels as if there is so much pain held in
the underwires of my skin and I am rushing
home, trying to reach the door before it begins to
spill from the openings of my eyes, before
You ask me to write about you.
To write about you, not write you the way you throw wishes I would paint you back and forth between your lips.
I tell you I do not know to write about because one can only paint not paint about and writing is just painting pictures with words anyhow.
You don’t see the difference but to me it is huge, filling up the space between us in its enormity and I tell you to give me a moment.
I tell you to let me write you like sunshine, cascading light, tender hands that teach the world to bloom.
Let me write you like a magic act, predictable in your constancy, always drawing out awe from an audience that is as dark inside as the night.
I plead you to let me write you the way you hold me, soft marmalade skin, your heart whispering love songs to the rhythm of the morning.
It is late now and I weave my fingers between yours like patchwork, promise that to write about you would make no sense at all.